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I forget the time of birth on my birth certificate, but if you allow 15 minutes fudge time, I'm within 24 hours of having survived a full 39 years on this planet.
...and number 39 has been quite a year.
This time last year, I was feeling alone and abandoned --
I'd worked all of 2001 on a designing and organizing a storytelling workshop... and even though all my friends said it was a great idea, and they'd be there... no one showed up after the 2nd of 13 sessions.
I did get lots of responses to an online personal I had up in 2001, but after a few exchanges, it turned out that every one of the guys responding were looking for a "discrete affair."
So on my birthday, 2002, I decided to make a clean slate of it and remove my personal altogether -- and aol wouldn't let me. So, I spent a good bit of time on my birthday, last year, screaming in frustration at the ISP, and thumping my forehead on the monitor.
2002 was a much better year -- I submitted 8 pieces of my work to 8 issues of a local magazine, and 4 were accepted for publication (maybe 5 -- won't know about the last piece I submitted until February). I wrote a memorial piece to my uncle, and posted on a public forum... and a total stranger thanked me for it, saying it helped her with the death of her mother. I made lots of new friends when I shifted the Hoedown from RADW to ADWC, and strengthened the bonds with old friends.
Still no romance sparked from the personal I still do have up, but I got something better: a strong sense of community -- of being loved and lovable. 180 from where I was 364 days ago. Let's hope there is no similiar turn around for 2003... Now that I'm going in the right direction, let's aim for full speed ahead!
...and number 39 has been quite a year.
This time last year, I was feeling alone and abandoned --
I'd worked all of 2001 on a designing and organizing a storytelling workshop... and even though all my friends said it was a great idea, and they'd be there... no one showed up after the 2nd of 13 sessions.
I did get lots of responses to an online personal I had up in 2001, but after a few exchanges, it turned out that every one of the guys responding were looking for a "discrete affair."
So on my birthday, 2002, I decided to make a clean slate of it and remove my personal altogether -- and aol wouldn't let me. So, I spent a good bit of time on my birthday, last year, screaming in frustration at the ISP, and thumping my forehead on the monitor.
2002 was a much better year -- I submitted 8 pieces of my work to 8 issues of a local magazine, and 4 were accepted for publication (maybe 5 -- won't know about the last piece I submitted until February). I wrote a memorial piece to my uncle, and posted on a public forum... and a total stranger thanked me for it, saying it helped her with the death of her mother. I made lots of new friends when I shifted the Hoedown from RADW to ADWC, and strengthened the bonds with old friends.
Still no romance sparked from the personal I still do have up, but I got something better: a strong sense of community -- of being loved and lovable. 180 from where I was 364 days ago. Let's hope there is no similiar turn around for 2003... Now that I'm going in the right direction, let's aim for full speed ahead!
